Well I was finally going to watch Transformers tonight until my significant other decided to wake up late and than have one of her usual headaches. So now I have no plans for tonight or might hang out with the boys or the bff lol. Quien sabe.
For those that think that Saw is supposed to be a very scary movie it really isn't. I look them as movies that are supposed to make you want to vomit and just witness gruesome deaths more of a thriller and suspence. Well I saw the movie with my novia and a bunch of my friends and I liked it. I know it wasn't that good of a movie but it kept me up. But who knows maybe it wasn't the movie maybe it was the gorgeous woman to my right that kept squeezing my arm or hand through out the movie haha. In my opinion I enjoyed it, not better than the first 3, but still a good movie in my eyes. I have to say my favorite part in the movie was where Agent Pater Stahm was caught the first time and his head inside a plastic glassed boxed in which water was coming in to kill him, and this animal takes a pen and stabs it into his throat as his only method of survival. He's a effing G for that corageous stunt. So yea I liked the movie and can't wait for Saw VI.
Yesterday completley caught me off gaurd, atleast the way the day went about. I woke up yesterday morning knowing that I might see her, but I wasn't making a big deal out of it because there was that possibility that I wouldn't. As 11 a.m. was nearing I started to give up on seeing her and started to plan out what I would do that day. But to my suprise I recieved that text saying she was getting home and "getting ready to leave." Boy can this woman take her time getting ready. Noon was nearing and she still had not text me that she was on her way, but than 15 mins later I received the text that she was on her way. I was a little disappointed that most likely an hour is all the time I would get with her but I couldn't complaint, it was more than I got last week.
She arrived and I made her-her usual, a grilled cheese. We watched her favorite afternoon shows, honestly I kind of like them but I don't let her know that (lol). But for that one hour I felt like I was where I always wanted to be, her and I all alone. Inside me I was praying and hoping that she called out of work or atleast called to go in late. I guess it's true God does listen, because as that hour past, and as 2:15 approached, she suprised me with her calling in late to work. That wasn't the best part-the best part was what she said when I asked why, "because I want to spend more time with you." No one knows just how much joy was running through me when I heard that. I know I gave it away because I asked her "why?" three times just so I can hear her say that again and again.
We ended up spending the whole day together and even did laundry. Like a friend said "we're going to do laundry just like old times" and believe it or not the whole day felt like the old times. It was one of those days where we just wanted to spend the whole day together. And I enjoyed every mintue of it. Later that night we just went to the movies. I know it was random but it was good. She than drove half way home, I would've let her drive home but we were in a hurry. She impressed me with her driving.
That was how day unfolded and I enjoyed it. But the fact that we spent the whole day together wasn't what made me the happiest, it was the fact that at times through out the day I was reffered to as "babe". Yea I know she accidently said it, but I see that she wants to say it but is just being stuburn or trying to take things slow or scared. Probably scared of commitment again and that her heart will be broken again, but that is that last thing I would ever do. To go along with that she also said the 3 worded phrase, "I Love You." Yea it's been said before but the fact that she said it first made me happy. I guess I just have to wait until that day where she just opens up. I hope it's sooner than later because I miss those old days.
So Lakeview Terrace was a total waste of money last night. The previews make it that movie look so much better than it really was. The movie wasn't worth the pay but was the night worth it, I would have to say it was. The movie was boring most of the time, Samuel L. Jackson plays some kind of psycho in the movie. As the movie unfolds you find out why he acts the way he is and his reasoning for disliking the interracial couple, but this movie only had me on the edge of my seat for about 10 mins. The only reason I enjoyed this damn movie was because I was with her again. I loved it.
Why do I still wonder if this was the right thing to do? I sometimes wonder what was it that I did, or we did, to get things back to normal before. I wonder but I have no answer. I'm just left with an empty thought in my head and nothing at all crosses my mind. I'm just trying to rush into this and I don't know why. They say patience is a virtue but it's not helping. I just want the old times back. The times where I woke up to that morning message and the random messages during the day saying that unique 3 worded phrase...or the old "IFLY" or the cute nicknames, things like that are what I miss. At times I want to just snap my fingers and bam, I'm back to where I was 4-6 months ago. But what was I thinking this is the real world where you just have to take it one step at a time. I still reminisce of the good times we had and if those times will ever come back, but all I can say is that time will tell. I guess the saying, "It'll all get better in time" is really true. You have to give it time-time to soke in, time to remember what it was you both had, and time to know this is what you truly wanted.
P.S. I want to lay in the streets with her just one more time, side by side to look up at the night sky and ask her, "You want to dance with me?"