Saturday, January 31, 2009

Yes Harley!

Yes Harley!

I want Answers!

I guess thats why huh?

Thursday, January 29, 2009

I Will Be

Leona Lewis - I Will Be

Harley I have a song for you!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

The End

There are a million reasons why a relationship can crash and burn. Whether it's because you don't have the guts to make it work or you just get sick and tired of jumping through hoops. Eventually everyone fails. I've heard that a person with a determined heart frightens problems away and that miracles do happen if you're willing to look for them. But than again they also say when you do nothing at all things have a way of fixing themselves. So what approach do you take on this vicious circle that has been put upon you?

In relationships love does exist. I believe it does, well atleast that's what I tell myself. The bottom line is that every couple wait and go through the same crap as everybody else but the big difference is that the couple truly right for eachother don't let these "problems" take them down. You can't expect everything to be perfect because if you do than you would just end up disappointed. Both people are going to make mistakes but your pride will keep you from apologizing. But one of the two will stand up and fight for that relationship every time, if it's right. The other will notice in time what they let slip away. What people don't see is that the key to a lot of things is balance. The balance of power, balance in love or maybe just balance itself. For some of us it seems out of reach and too difficult to achieve but the important thing is to never stop trying.

I like to think that our life comes down to the choices we make along the way. Like the choice of standing up and saying what you believe in, the choice to focus on important things rather than stupid things. The choice on whether to fly our or not. I look at these choices as tiny little tests. Some can be looked as a test of character or a test of fortitude and others can be a test of friendship. In the end you just have to trust your decision and hope that you'll land on solid ground. But with this there are a lot of things that can take you by surprise. Sometimes it's realizing you aren't as happy as you thought and sometimes is when you take a chance and win for a change.

At the end letting go is never easy. There is no more difficult thing to do than letting go of someone you cared for or loved. Sometimes the small gap of hope that was left open for you to see happiness closes right before your eyes. So when that door is closed shut just remember that another door is waiting to be opened. Once you've made your decision don't look back and wonder what could've been, look forward and remember that eventually you're going to find someone else that will make you feel ten times better than the other ever did. Is it difficult? Of course it is, and it's going to take TIME (4 letter word I hate). It's part of life, you can't go through life without heartaches, it's just not possible.

"Whats even scarier is that deep down inside you know you picked this person. And if you run away from them now, you're running away from the person you always wanted to be."

[Turns Light Off...Closes Door]

Song dedicated to you:
Underwood - So Small
Your Gaurdian Angel

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I Have to Title

So I have one cousin trying new experiments on how to stay awake at work, which by the way I have to say is one creative technique he has come up with. Even though the biting your own tongue might sting it does you keep you up, whatever gets the job done. I have a couple of friends with dilemas on their relationship. No major one but what I would call a small bump in the road, as if I haven't had enough relationship talks in the past month or so. Another friend about to get deported, and no not by the gov't, but by his own parents for about a month. He just keeps implying that "karma is a bitch", which still has me a bit confuzzled seeing as how I don't know why karma would hit him. I have another friend going to New Jersey every weekend and not showing up for 2 days. Leaving Friday night and coming back Sunday afternoon, sounds like fun huh?

As for myself, well it's been a couple of weeks to remember. I came back to this hell hole called home after a "great escape." So cold, but less rain. A friend of mine attempted this "great escape" as well, in thier own way, but with no success. Surprise! I've been just sleeping my ass for half the day to wake up to-to anguish, boredom, disbelief, distress, heartache, memories, silence, yearning if thats anything to wake up to that's what I wake up to if not than... it's nothing. I have also become Dr. Phil, out of all the times to be Mr. -correction- Dr. Phil now is the time. I'm not complaining because I don't mind giving a couple of words of advice to the needy, but it makes me analyze myself and my actions. I visited a friend which lived in one of those fancy-shmancy apartments which they built right next door. Very nice place with a great view, could've been better if the building across the street wasnt intefering. Of course I let the person know that because of this building I have no view of living life through my kitchen window anymore. Now school, good old St. John's, well you know how they are they can blow mine!

Escape from what we call our life. June or July??

Saturday, January 10, 2009


I don't know what it was but this feeling finally hit me. It was just talk before, about me starting this project and how it would be a great idea. I have a friend that found it humorous but at the same time appealing to start this project. So I have officially decided so beginning my own novel. Yes ladies and gent's I have decided to start this project, but of course not alone. I have my fellow friend Ms. Omeir-Mejia helping me with editing. Whether you want to believe it or not I'm serious about attempting this. I'm not promising great success, but I am promising an attempt.

And if you so care to ask what the novel will be about. I don't know what I want to focus it on, but a part of me is leaning toward life-a young mans life. His maturing process to be the man he wants to become. Facing all the different challenges that come his ways, and trust me there will be many and the battles with others that have come his way. The adolecent/man's name will naming him James.

Thats a start.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Have you ever regreted something to the point where it starts to constantly bother you?

I think I'm getting that feeling, and it's not cool.

To be Continued...