So the Met's lose again, adding more to my disappointing month.
I'm going to the game tomorrow and they better win.
So I'm assmuing time is still needed.
But She texts/calls me two nights straight and the reason being becaue she "misses" me. If you include tonight just because I didn't text her, make it three. She gives me a hug, not a regular hug, but one of those hugs that you give someone after not seeing them for a long period of time. A tight passionate hug that you just don't want to let go.
I ask, what would happen if I gave her a kiss?
She replies, "Nothing."
The only thing I want to do is grab her and just tell her how I effing really feel, but I can't. I want to grab her and just give her that one kiss, but I can't. I can't say or do what I really want to. So I just sit there like an idiot and let time pass little by little. The wound bleeds more and more everytime I hang out with her but yet I still do it.
Why do I do this? Am I an idiot? Do I enjoy myself suffering in the inside? Is there really something positive that can come out of this?
Or are we just trying to make our future "friend relationship" work out?